Inspiration of life

This guys here asked a blonde girl yesterday “Where are you from”?

She goes “Latvia” and his stupid response was “Oh that´s not a country!”

“Oh really? Last time I checked it was cus again I AM FROM THERE” the girls said and turned around.

This is absolutely true. Fucking ridiculous. Remember the guy in Venice I blogged about who yelled at me for speaking swedish to my swedish friend in AMERICA where people speak ENGLISH?

Fucking DUSHBAG. Makes me wanna throw up.

I went to Target the other day. For those of you who dont know what Target is, it´s a big store that has everything and it´s super cheap.
The old woman in the check-out tried to smile and help me but I just felt really bad for her. Here she was at 60, working in a store for probably minimum wage… What type of life is that?
I don´t judge ANYONE as long as you do what you want with your life. Whether that is cleaning toilets, ordering pizzas, working in the White House or traveling the world, I don´t give a shit but you´ve GOTTA like it. Otherwise I´ve got zero respect for ya. The reason behind that is, if you don´t do what you like, you can´t respect your own inner voice, in other words yourself. And if you don´t respect yourself, how can you expect others to do it?

This woman clearly didn´t like working at Target. I could just tell by the look in her eyes, gazing away, looking at the clock…2 hours left….1 hour and 59 minutes, 58, 57….

Get home, prepare some pasta, watch The Bachelor, pay some bills, go to bed, get up, go to Target, fold clothes, help the swedish girl find the right size…

What has struck me this time in the U.S, is the lack of life quality for so many people here. Seriously, they work, work and then they work some more, over time, weekends, kissing asses, backstabbing… I´ve heard so many stories now I´ve become a little bit scared actually. What type of world are we living in that only cares about money, status, the car we drive and the amount of time it takes us to travel from point A to point B?!
Now, of course Americans are not the only career focused people in the world, but it´s the lack of balance here that scares me.

When are you suppose to have YOUR time to do what YOU want lady at Target? When will you see the Colusseum? Eat cocunut-chicken in Thailand? Dance Flamenco with a latin man in Brazil? Go up in the Eiffel tower in Paris and eat pizza in Naples? Drink Mohitos on Cuba, see your favorite musical in London? Spend time with the people you love? Bake chocolate chip cookies with your mom, dad, granddaughter? Make love on a rock in Indonesia or in the backseat of a car parked next to a beach in Valencia, make out with a sweaty hot guy in Nashville?
Walk through the alps or Himalayas with munks?
They have 2 weeks of paid vacation time here, PER YEAR, but not even the first year you work at a company.
Vacation equals lazyness for a lot of people I guess. But I gotta say when it comes to work I am not lazy at all. I prioritize to work with things I love and I am not afraid of working 24/7 sometimes. The difference though, I look at vacation time as inspirational time, not necessarily time to “Rest”. Life is suppose to inspire us to be good, do good things, try NEW things, move forward in a developing way.

I´ve been fascinated for some time now about Latin people. It´s their PASSION. Passion for life! They eat with a passion, they talk full of passion, make love full of passion, fight, argue, dance…
Spanish, Italian, South American people… It makes me smile just thinking about how they use their whole body when they talk. How they laugh LOUD, dance like nobody is watching, Love like they´ve never been hurt.

It attracts me, to do something with a passion… If you can do it 100% why do it less? So if you´re cleaning toilets, do it with a passion or just stop Stop right now and do something else damn it.
“Well it´s not that easy” YES IT IS!!!! It is it is it is. Two simple questions you need to ask yourself: What do I like? What am I good at? Chances are the answer will be the same to those two questions.

I´ve said it before and I will say it again, Life is way way waaay to short…

Passion for 2008

One thing is for sure. There is nothing more amazing than pure passion and raw attraction.

The moment when your instincts just take over, the second you realize that nothing at all matters around you than consuming and being consumed by that other person.

I´ve experienced it once for real in my life.  The absolute most crazy and amazing experience. It´s about 100% LETTING GO and just loosing all control there is, and just allowing yourself to just be.

I had a dream about it last night and it fucking consumed me again hahaha… Seiously, it was out of this wooorld….
My new years resolution will be to have that again.

Kharma, feelings and experiences

There is a saying in Swedish that I´m not 100% on how to translate but basically it´s “A problem never comes alone” meaning that if one bad thing happens, chances are there will be more bad things happening.
Have you noticed how some people never get out of their bad circles? How some people have a bad year, things just keep hitting them and it seems like one bad thing just opens up for another bad thing.
Then for some people, good things keep happening. But even for these people, bad things can occur sometimes but they somehow twist it into something good. Find a meaning with it, learn from it, turns it around and then the good circle is back on track again. Like most of my friends know, I am pretty good at that.
I remember when Andreas crashed on my couch a few months ago, we woke up in the morning and I was hungover and didn´t feel like doing a bunch of things that had to be done but I managed to say “This is going to be sooo much fun today, whoppaaa up and jump let´s go” Andreas just looked at me and said these exact words “You are fucking unbelievible sometimes Jenny” and we both started laughing.

I believe we all get hit by hard times during life. I sure have had my fair share of family emergencies both mom, dad and stepdad becoming seriously ill. But I am 100% sure it have all brought good things, such as appreciation of each other in a new way.

Life itself is not meant to be centered around material things. We won´t be able to bring ANY of that with us when we die. People matter, and people come into your life for a reason, season or lifetime. The older I get the better I´m becoming at knowing who is interesting enough to “keep”.
Sometimes I have a tendency to attract people with less energy that I have. It´s no secret that I have a little bit more energy than the average person. Sometimes that energy itself attracts people who need to feed off of other peoples energy, it´s a natural thing. However, I have become good at choosing who I spend my energy, time and love on. The few people that are in my life mean the world to me. There is no limit what so ever what I would do for them.
My point with this is, I believe strongly that these people will have had an amazing impact on me and these experiences and relationships will be part of the energy I will bring with me the day I die.
The amazing dinners and long conversations with Jenny, the many trips around the world and hysterical laughs with Josie, the unconditional friendship, advices and feedback from Andreas, the never ending support from my family…

My best friend wrote something good to me yesterday;

“Two things are for sure in life, we will die, and the material things we have collected and the job we have done won´t matter, what matters will be the experiences we have lived through. Tastes, smells, feelings, new experiences and places, Kharma, and dreams”

What You See Is What You Get

“A relationship always ends the way it starts” Marti told me today. She is one of the wisest women I´ve ever met and a big rolemodel for me. She has had her fair share of guys and it hasn´t always worked out due to different reasons but when she explained what she meant I really got the point she was trying to make.

“If he pushes your buttons til´it makes you nuts today, he will 2 years from now, if he prioritizes his interests today, he will 3 years from now….”

It´s very common to fall for somebody for the complete wrong reasons. Look around you, how many couples do you know that has stayed together for more than 1 year? 3 years? 7 years? 10????? I think it´s because they often didn´t see clearly in the beginning.
You see something interesting but it´s not really what you see that attracts you, it´s rather what could potentially become of the person that attracts you. It´s the thought of you personifying the other person, make them uniquily yours, change the small bad things into good, turning the silver into gold.

I realized today that it will never become anything between me and a guy I know.
He is always going to want to change me and I will always be mad at him for that. But that´s his way of keeping me under control, within distance, keep ME interested. If he wasn´t as intriguing and challenging, I would probably not put any time on him since that seems to be the only thing happening between us. No other action but lots of words.
A person doesn´t change, that´s the way it is.

Same things goes for people who express a lot of things, but nothing really happens. They say they´re going to do this and that, you´re going to go on that vacation together, they´re gonna take you here and there and come to that party and cook the most amazing dinner for you, love you like nobody else and jadda-jadda-jadda. I say Show me the money damn it! Show me the action, do it, don´t say it!
If we just try to look at what´s infront of us instead of what we think we see 5 years down the line, we might save ourselves some really hard times. If we see the take-away-thai food he comes home with and not the beautiful filé mignon he claims he will cook next week, then we know what we will get, both today, tomorrow and next week.
What he is today, is what he will be in a year from now. How she reacts and handles situations, how she speaks to people today, is the same way she will a year from now.

What you see is what you get. A very valuable lesson…